Monday, February 27
I saw him lying there..in the ICU ward..with a long tube in his mouth directly to his lungs..it was painful..but he kept shifting his postition to catch a better glimpse of us..it was a heart wrenching sight..
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Many a times..I just wondered about life..death is NOT scary..it's the witness of your loved ones fighting on the edge..fighting to speak..fighting to tell their last words..fighting with pain..fighting with agony that is scary..it can be very horrifying..watching them so susceptible to the unknown moment where they'll breathe their last breath..watch them go helplessly into the unknown journey after death..and human beings being human beings..can never imagine this terrifying scene until they..see it for themselves..
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My eyes turned red..I can still see him take the bus..take the train..climb up the four storeys to our place..bought us a huge box of egg tarts..char siew soh..doughnuts..pandan cake..and watch us eat in delight..and now..he's rendered utterly helpless on the deathbed..my heart cringed..and I saw grandpa in him..in which..they held the same tube in their mouths to help them breathe just before they lived to see this world..and of course..us..and how frail they are..we must be prepared for the worst.. .. ..
irony @
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